life in palam

Salam :)

boleh agak dah kot cemana life kat palam or else I can say living as foundation student

Cry Me A River~



PS: mohon tolong doakan, dua minggu lagi test Physics. Ma, Abah I really don't want to disappoint you guys..

unwanted

In the name of Allah,

Enna sandar pada bucu dinding bilik.

kepala didongak ke langit.
'aku tahu, Dia ada...' air mata laju turun dari pipi.

dikesat dengan belakang lengan.

'apehal takleh stop ni. ergh.'



'sebab selama ni takpernah ada sebab lain...'

'tapi kalau dengan cara ni aku takkan.. takkan dapat capai aim aku, then forget it'

aku penat. penat gila, ya aku futur.
I'm tired of trying to make them see me, realize that I'm here.



hantar aku jauh, Tuhan.

biar aku islah nafs kat tempat orang kalau kat sini is not where I meant to be.

hantar aku jauh, Tuhan.

biar aku belajar untuk matang manually

hantar aku jauh, Tuhan.

jauh dari semua yang menyakitkan di sini.


cukuplah.



aku tahu, seumur hidup aku akan dibayangi segala dosa-dosa aku.
aku tahu, even how much I try it'll still hurt.

even. more.

aku tengok kawan-kawan lain happy je, oh well aku tak dapat result gempak macam dorang. pakai jubah graduasi lawa-lawa, well aku tak dapat pun merasa...

tapi bahagia tu di hati
bukan di kertas dan nota-nota kecil


bukan jugak pada gambar pakai camera 360'

cemburu.

aku tengok dorang amik gamba dengan result gempak dengan parents.
aku tengok dorang senyum lebar gembira tengok slip keputusan

when inside,
I'm dying.

belum lagi kena perli bila jumpa cikgu sebab teruk subjek dia.
belum lagi kena marah dengan parents kat rumah.

'if death is a choice,

I believe I'm long dead. and is decaying'

tapi aku yakin,

there's a purpose.



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Alhamdulillah, done with Hari Anugerah Cemerlang.

PS: I need treatment.

roller coaster

In the name of Allah,

tadi masa drive pergi sekolah traffic light junction sekolah tu rosak.
jadi saya drive jelah slow-slow masuk laluan ke sekolah tu. tengok line clear, sekali ada kereta datang dari arah kiri, laju gila bakhang. hampir nak accident, abah kat sebelah dah jerit macam ape dah. sebab dia simpang empat, jadi kereta memang semua arah datang laa. waktu tu jantung kencang macam apa tah taktau laa.

rasa nak turun kereta je suruh abah bawak. takut.

tapi kenalah tough sikit kan, so control jela sampai parking lot sekolah tu. then naik atas jumpa juniors kelas 5 Ali yang saya tutor tu. bagi last word dan settle kan apa yang indebted dengan dorang, itu jelah. since there'll be no more class with them afterwards.

sedih gakla sebab I enjoy their company.
tapi nak buat guane tetiba Fye message bagitau there'll be class no more.
All the best, korang :) Fightinggg !




PS: bak kata Do Min Joon, don't listen to sad songs when you're sad. hmmm but I'm currently listening to Misty Blue.

amateur

In the name of Allah,

I did it guys ! alhamdulillah.
yesterday driving from UM to Segambut. today from Segambut to Selayang. quite okay lah despite the fact that I got shouted a lot for driving fast as a newbie.

and things I'm uneasy with:

1. motorcyclists

2. petrol station

the car got stuck at petronas somewhere in Selayang where there're cars everywhere and I'd have to reverse and drive out of the petrol station. it's hard to reverse a lot and I got panic when Ma started to give instruction in a high pitch voice..


PS: can drive to tutor class afterwards iA yeay :D